carpe diem

To continue my first Bali with me! blog.  Feeling like under spotlight, under or above tens pair of eyes watching me. I was feeling misdirected by myself as I was confused many people are waiting. Couldn't see their faces better but turned out they're drivers from hotels waiting for pick up.  Where is he?  Lol 😂 this is the moment and I could never forget. I took out my phone to call him, I had decided not to ask him what clothes he was wearing as I wanted to keep it secret but he already showed me his clothes he was wearing in a video he sent me. So yeah.  I asked him where he was. He told me to go left but I walked up straight to the right. And then he told me to walk the other way so I made 180° rotation and tadaaa ✨  He was there. Waving hand to me. The first impression I got was, he is so bright!  😂 What I meant was his skin. He was pinky white with plumpy essence while I am yellowish. The moment we walked closer to each other was kinda awkward....

Bali...  Since when did I start to think 'I wanna go to Bali!'? I think that was around December 2018. Or maybe sooner than that. My mental desire to do some rebellious or okay let's call it an Adventurous mental was appearing and grow and grow and grow bigger, stronger and I couldn't hold it anymore. Anymore.  But yeah, expectations versus reality gravity exists. It chained me. Drown me. Lol. *Lucky I've been accomplishing one of my goals to go to Bali otherwise this will be a blog with sad vibe* I was broke. I am broke. Still broke. Money is going up and down hill. Lucky I can still survive. So, believe it or not, I prayed and pray. I wished and wish. I put all my faith but in the same time I was also gave it up. Gave all I ever wished for to someone else up there to decide, to the galaxy to decide. Doesn't matter which one you believe  the point is, I gave up. 'Pasrah'.  Then, tadaa. Life is changing in the lowest point of your life. Really .  I get a...